Signs of Change…
Above all else, I want to apologize for my lack of updates over the past few month. There are two reasons for my silence: one, I contribute to Huskermax.com, a task which I give my full attention, and two, I don’t feel like I have a lot to say. Like last year, the fall has been a time where my ideas go silent and my mind goes into reboot cycle. Writing will come back around.
Fall in my mind is football season with leaves sprinkled in. I don’t even think of it as season, but this year I have made more of a mental note to enjoy the leaves on the ground, the final farmer’s market, and other fall traditions. I’m dreading that day when I have to start trekking out through snow to get to my truck.
There is nothing quite like football season as it plays out. The college season lasts only three months, and the pro season lasts only a bit longer. With so many college teams that matter, it’s a mad dash to try and read as much as you can, because you know, when it stops, your team’s record gets cemented in your mind, and there’s another eight months you have to come up with stories.
Recently, I hit a deer with my car, and am putting off getting a new one. It was getting older anyway, so I was thinking about replacing it. I’m not a car guy; all I care is that my next vehicle lasts a minimum of eight years or more.
I have struggled with a particular sin this fall: envy of someone else’s triumph. I tell myself in my head that, if I resent the success of others, I will not have any myself. I binge watch Breaking Bad, so I should know where the road of jealousy and anger goes. I keep reminding myself, worry about what you can control.